Dreams

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Lost in a dream, my thoughts engulf me.

Hidden deep below my surface mind,

Jagged edges, or soft pillowing breezes,

Cats turn into cacti, spiking my hands,

Squid tangle my hair in the deep ocean of gravity.

How do I find my way out, up, into night time waking or daylight glimmers.?

Shifting sands release my breath, choosing to push me up out of sleep.

Slumber expelling me for the day, until it slips back around me. Pulls me back down to the abyss. And I sleep and dream……..

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A poem of spellchecker words…….

I tried the same way but

Sent from my old phone.

I enjoy the rest of the day,

Pearly white hair on the sofa,

Sent from my black bag,

Cause a bit of a victorian painting

Sent from my old address ,

So sharp and fine with the barn dance

I’m a little bit worried about the snow.

Its a bit like an expensive weekend.

Sent from my old version of my head.

Lazy days

Sleep is fine for the cat,

Sixteen hours a day, rain or shine.

A wash behind the ears as he awakes,

A sniff of his paw, then cleans his face.

Time for breakfast/lunch/dinner

And cold, fresh, water.

Then off outside to peruse the birds.

See what’s on his territory.

Ginger from next door??

A swipe and it runs away…

Later as the sun sets,

Paw over nose

Cat again in a doze.

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The Sun sets earlier every day now, by 9pm it is dark, the summer sun falls below the horizon, dropping down and bringing shadows.

My head nods with weariness, barely able to keep my eyes open. I long for sleep, ready to rest my weary limbs beneath cool sheets, but sleep sneaks away sometimes, I’m hazy with it one minute then alert and awake the next jerking back into the world with a jump, taken out of sleep by a noise or a pain.

So yes, I do need sleep, but it tends to grab hold of me in the daytime. When I’m not expecting it I fall asleep. Listening to the radio or watching tv. In a meeting. Thankfully never when I am driving. But I could almost fall asleep in a queue in a shop, tonight I was nodding at choir practice… but now at well after midnight, nothing,  no sleep.

Sleep is the soft rest that gently rocks your body into dreams,

Sleep is the midnight air coursing through your veins,

Sleep is looking at your partner as he slumbers,

Sleep hides ills and heals woes,

Sleep shapes wakefulness, giving rest to the weary.

I want sleep in my eyes, sleep in my mind.

I want to be drousy, dreaming of soft down pillows.

I need rest, from fears, from worries.

Give me sleep, now.

Awake

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Darn it I’m awake again,

3 hours sleep so far,

Woken by an urge to do,

What nature calls me to.

 

Damn it I’m awake again

Before the birds first call,

Very dark turns slightly light,

Now sleep is hit by blight.

 

Drat it I’m awake too much,

At night I barely sleep

Yet in the bright arousing day,

My mind slips far away.

 

So let me sleep an hour more,

Give me that much ease,

Don’t let me stay awake at night,

But let my dreams take flight.

 

Goodnight..

Goodnight..

Good night….zzzzz

When insomnia strikes

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My ears whistling that high pitched whistle again, last night it was sussing like a weathered shell held to my ear. Plus it’s gone cold  all of a sudden, the chill has reached my ankles, my knees, got up to get the duvet to snuggle in, then I was too hot…

Snoring from my partner doesn’t help, it builds up gradually, not too loud, but when you are trying to lie quietly it creeps up on you, can you sleep before it reaches peak snore?

So I go back to bed, snuggle under the duvet, elbow my partner in the ribs so he turns over, blow my nose to relieve the whistle…5 minutes, 10 minutes….no, pick up my book, turn to page 44 and start reading. It’s a science book, Richard Feynmann QED, trying to understand light waves or particles, quanta…..dozed offf…….zzzzx…CAT decides to jump up to get warm next to my back,,uh….drsf ,,gnnnh…she wakes me up running over my face!…..awake again I seek solace in my computer, check emails…write this…..no midnight trumpish tweeting where’s the coveeffee,,,,Gnnn, coffee,,decaff,,hot…….

I can’t sleep….

I can’t sleep, so I’m watching the cat dreaming.

I can’t sleep, so I watch its little paws.

I can’t sleep, even though the stars are gleaming,

I can’t sleep, despite long, deep, yawns…..

 

My hands are itching from an eczema flare up,

My hands are itching, the skin it seems to burn,

My hands are itching, and painfully I sit up.

My hands are itching, the clocks hands slowly turn…..

 

My mind is racing, swirling with tired thoughts,

My mind is racing, trying to find rest,

My mind is racing, while dreams are what I’ve sought,

My mind is racing, a deep sleep would be best.

 

The cat is waking, a gentle mewing breathing

The cat is waking, and wants to play a while,

The cat is waking, while I at last am sleeping,

The cat is waking, in dreams it ran so wild.

 

Well that’s the best I can do at 3.18am! I went to bed but got up again, I don’t know what started it but eczema that I have had on one finger of one hand for many years has flared up and spread. So much so that I went out and bought SLS free soap and shampoo yesterday. It stands for sodium laureleth sulphate and a friend reckons that it can cause eczema. However having used the magic soap it only seemed to alleviate the problem slightly.

I then compounded the problem because the shopkeeper tried to sell me some expensive moisturizing hand cream, I didn’t want a whole tube so they gave me a tiny sample in a little pot to bring home.  I duly put it on my hands before bedtime, now a few hours later my hands are very itchy. So no more posh hand cream, I think I will try and get something else. In the meantime I’ve put on a little hydrocortisone and I’m hoping it calms things down.

Sitting here at 3.26am wishing I could sleep like a cat….

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